emo, as usual.

So much to write about.

A truncated list:
~The wedding rehearsal/dinner today;
~Adventures on the bus;
~Kenya’s capitalistic economy and socialistic culture

But today: me.

This morning I felt icky. I am nursing a cold, and though I woke up in time, I didn’t feel like rushing to get ready, rushing to catch a bus, rushing to church, greeting a million people, and sitting upright in a pew for 2+ hours. Plus, the wedding rehearsal was this afternoon, which I knew would take patience and energy, and I didn’t want to use up any I had left before I got there.

So I stayed home, and read my book, and my bible, and played a game on my computer, and read emails.

And then I only had 5 hours to kill before the rehearsal.

And suddenly I panicked. What was I doing? Why was I wasting a perfectly beautiful, sunny day inside? (the problem was that I stayed home last night, too, dozing and watching tv all evening. I could tell my cold is getting better based on how restless I felt.)

And this feeling of discontent quickly led to boredom which led to loneliness which led to despair: what was I DOING here? Why was I in Kenya in the first place? And what on earth made me think I could start a children’s home, anyway? And why in the world did anyone ELSE think so?!

Yeah- I know I’m crazy. Get used to it.

I was impatiently pacing my bedroom when it occurred to me: pray. So I tried, ‘okay…HELP.’ And ‘God, I’m so lonely. Um..help.’ and several other sentences that ended in ‘help, okay?’

And then I took a shower.

And within seconds I felt so lifted, so encouraged and comforted by our Counselor, our Helper- GOD is in charge. God knows. He’s been there; he’s been sick, and lonely, and discouraged and overwhelmed before, too.

I can’t even put into words the calming effect God had on my heart this morning: I went from total panicked disarray to peaceful, encouraged empowerment:

I am not alone.




Also, I took pictures today. I’ll post them tomorrow, I promise*.

*by promise, I mean, if the Lord wills, and I live, and the internet cooperates.